Sunday, August 9, 2009

Here we go...

So for the past two weeks I've felt like life has gotten away from me and I've been playing catch up the whole time. It's been very frustrating since I feel like such a failure in many aspects of my life. For instance, my calling, I've dropped the ball a couple times and the poor president must be wondering why she wanted me in the first place. I've forgotten to call people, bring necessary items... It's been a bit disheartening for me.

Life has gone nuts as well, I'm in a lot of pain lately and it's drug me down. The house is falling apart and I feel like a failure there too. Where does my time go? I honestly feel like I'm running all the time and have nothing to show for it except a messy house and craziness.
Life also without cable has been surprisingly easier than I thought. We find more creative things to do instead of plop down on the couch and waste the day away. Although right now with Marc working on a project it's hard for me to keep myself entertained and you can only read, cook, not talk or distract for so long... This post has turned into a downer and I'm sorry for those who read it.

We did however go get some fishing poles for all of us and we're excited to get somewhere and fish. We don't though know where we can go that's good up here in Salt lake so if you know of any I'd really appreciate the heads up on where to go. We only know where to go further down south.

Again, sorry for the downer post, I've just needed to get it off my chest and since this is somewhat of a journal of sorts you'll just have to bear with me.

Here's to a better week of calming down!


Aimee said...

Totally know how ya feel girl!!! Bring the kids over for a lil' bit and you can get caught up :) Then we can go play at the lake! :)

Jess said...

I hope things get better soon. I'm sorry to hear that you're in so much pain. Don't worry about your post, we all have posts like this, reading them lets us all know we're normal. I love you guys, we need to hang out soon. I'm excited to see how Marc's project turns out. Hopefully we can get together sometime soon. You guys still need to come down sometime for dinner. Anyway, good luck with everything, if you ever need someone to talk to, you have my number!! Love ya