Spilling my guts...

I have sat down so many times to write and nothing seems to come out that's worth sharing. April and May are typically a reflection time for me regarding my past. I find myself writing about this year after year in journals and here on the blog.

Just this past Monday a special little man turned 15. I can still see his little face just after he was born. He was so handsome and very sweet natured. He hardly cried and the hospital staff let him stay with me the full 48 hours I was in the hospital after he was born. He should have been under the billy ruben lights but I guess it wasn't bad enough so he could wait. I loved snuggling with him, talking to him telling him how much I love him and why I was doing what I was doing. I hoped that what I said was written on his heart and prayed that Heavenly Father would comfort him when he needed it. I like to think that babies are born with memories from the pre-existence to help them cope with the extreme change in their surroundings. I believe that the older they get the less they remember. This gave me comfort when thinking of him going to his new parents so quickly after we met. Today he's an amazing young man. He plays all kinds of sports, plays the drums and is quite the looker. He looks a lot like his birth father but you can see some of him in me. I keep in touch with the adoptive parents via letters every year and they are so kind to tell me what's going on in their lives. I know I made the right choice so long ago... It still hurts though. A piece of my heart went with him when I said goodbye. That part of my heart still hurts and aches although time has lessened the pain. I love you Kaden! God be with you till we meet again.

I Can Only Imagine ~ MercyMe w/ London Symphony Orchestra

I hope you feel the power behind this song! I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior!

Update... of sorts

The marathon post never happened due to my getting sick and taking care of myself. I have no voice currently and Jaidyn has a double ear infection. Funny story for that, I'm allergic to penicillin and Jaidyn asked for chewable tablets which was fine with me but after handling them twice I have begun to develop huge welts on my hands, up my arms and one on my lower jaw. Haha! Who knew that just touching the dang things would lead to such fun for me? I knew to take the allergy seriously since it really got me when I was younger but now I know I can't even touch the pill form. I was fine with the liquid for the years leading to now. There's a lot more to say but for now that's what I can do.

Have a happy St. Patrick's Day!!! Eat lot's of corned beef cooked in garlic, beef broth and BEER, it's delicious and makes the fat fall right off the meat as well as giving it an excellent flavor. So much so that I don't use the spice packet provided, I just toss it with the wrapper.

HERE I AM!

I'm still here, I promise. My life has been interesting and busy since I started working again. I LOVE my job! I think I've found my calling in life to be an educator. I currently work with 3-5 year olds in Granite School District's preschool services and I couldn't be happier. Thus, I haven't been posting at all for quite some time and I'm sorry to those who enjoyed reading! I haven't forgotten you and obviously about my blog. Tomorrow I'll do some marathon posting while the kids are at school and it's my day off.

Look forward to reading tomorrow!

My "theme" song... HAHA!

Michael Crawford O Holy Night , the most amazing version!

Sorry for my absence!

I'm still here, just started a new job which I love as a preschool assistant teacher. I think I've found my calling in life to teach little ones. So, I've decided this August or so to start college. I want to teach elementary ed or preschool like I am doing currently. I have never had a job that I love going to until now! There's much more to post soon, needless to say my children and work have taken up more of my time lately. Sorry for my absence!

I'll do better this time!

The Husband Song** LOVE IT!

Amazing Song~ Amazing Pictures

Starting anew...

I'm starting another chapter in my life... For a few years I've been a stay at home mom but now I'm going back to work again now that my children will be in school all day. I have been greatly blessed to have a job with the same hours and holidays as my children. I'm working as a preschool assistant at an elementary close by. I have had people come out of the woodwork to help before and after school for a few minutes. I have awesome friends and so much support, I can't help but think this is what Heavenly Father wants for me. I prayed and prayed to be a stay at home mom several years ago when working at a high school as the financial secretary. I loved that job and my prayers were answered, although not in the way I wanted but it did get me home with the kids.

Our goal is to be out of debt and into a home in a year and now with my income that's becoming a very real goal. I do see the light at the end of the tunnel and I'm so grateful for this opportunity.