More Sunday thoughts...

I've had a hard time dealing with life's trials lately, wondering why so much pain and hurt have been dealt to me in my life especially as of late and I've come to the conclusion that while some of it was brought on by me and my choices it's the crap that happens out of the blue that really makes us stronger. Marc and I have been going to some counseling and I've really come to some amazing conclusions about how I tend to handle things. I wish I had gone to counseling much sooner... I strongly recommend it to anyone. Anyway, on to spiritual realizations... A friend once told me that "you are being polished by Heavenly Father...pretty soon you will be shiny", and what an example I had been to her and in one of my moments of real need she had been there for me with kind words and love. Thank you my friend for the reminder! It got me on the path to forgiveness and healing. Another friend posted on her blog a statement by Pres. Gordon B. Hinkley that says...“It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. Put your trust in God and move forward with faith in the future. The Lord will not forsake us . . . if we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers.”This statement has been running through my head on a daily basis since my life turned upside down. It's become a constant comfort that even the Prophet of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (my church) has his moments. I've felt so alone and forsaken by my own thoughts of myself and my life that I have forgotten at times where or who those feelings come from. It's a hard fight to realize who you are and I'm fighting again to regain the confidence in who I am in all aspects of my life. Even though at times I feel not heard while saying my prayers, I really deep down know He's listening. I have to "fight" for my answers and after some time they do come and in such amazing ways. Well, those are the thoughts for today and as of late.