Family Pictures!

New Home!

So, we're moving and here's our new home! We're so excited. We've been married 9 years and it's about time we have our own place. We should get the keys a week from tomorrow.

The front of the Townhome

The kitchen

Dining Area

Jaidyn's Bedroom upstairs...

Lead Me...

This is a touching song I have heard that's about a couple having marriage difficulties and working to resolve them. It's helped me for sure...



I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're in independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Marathon post # 3

We've been goofy, made trains with rope, two cars and a stroller, played outside a lot as well as swimming. There's a lot that's happened around here but now that you've gotten to the end I think you get the gist of it...

This is a marathon post!!!

This is all of what I've been wanting to post about so have fun,grab a drink and sit back and enjoy. Jaidyn graduated pre-school, we've been to the zoo, been hiking... little sister in law got married...

Here we go!

Today I had a CT scan both with contrast and without to find out what the heck is wrong with me. I've had all kinds of ideas thrown at me and I'm wondering if it's diverticulitis or chroan's disease. I'm hoping for the first since it's easier to treat. I'm also hoping for an easy fix instead of something severely life changing. Needless to say I'm hoping for a resolve instead of more and more tests. I'll keep you posted on what happens.

Also this week I'm leaving my children and husband and well frankly, everything! I'm heading to Eden, Ut. to go on a self discovery retreat. It's called Captivating and a group of women come together to connect with God and then with ourselves. I am soooo excited to be going and am hoping to come home a new woman, mother and wife. I've really struggled lately with depression and the thoughts and feelings that come with that and I've really felt alone and of no worth to anyone. Of course I know that's not the truth but still it's a very real feeling when I'm in the pit of despair. You should read the book, "Captivating" by Stasi Eldredge.

Well, thanks for your time and here's to a good weekend away!

Memorial Day Thanks

I'm grateful for the men and women who risk their lives for our country and way of life. Sure I don't agree with our government but I applaud the service men and women who fight for America anyway.

I am also grateful for their families who send them away hoping to see them again but yet not knowing if they will. Their sacrifice is appreciated by me just as much as their family members who serve.

I love the military and all it stands for so I can live where and how I do. THANK YOU!

Wonder By Alex Solomon

Wonder

As I gaze and marvel, wonder and stare,
I wonder if God notices me, somewhere up there.
I wonder if He looks and marvels equally.
I wonder if He laughs and chuckles with glee.
I wonder if I’m looking Him square in the eye,
As He smiles, saying wordlessly, ‘Here am I!’
I wonder if someone else sees what I see.
I wonder if He wonders the same thing as me.
I wonder if after my life is spent,
What He’ll have to say about this say about this single event.
But one thing I wonder, more than anything at all;
I wonder if He’s having fun with it all.

My nephew wrote this poem and I love it. I've been through some struggles personally lately and I really liked how this made me feel. I hope you enjoy it too.

Hmmmm....Bear with me...

I'm just venting here so bear with me. For the past year I've had some stomach pains and lately they've gotten really painful. So I went to the Dr. today and after a urine test I was informed my white blood cells in there were through the roof! Well, I don't have any symptoms of an infection dealing with that area but they're going to test it more to see what they can find. Also, I had a blood test today and if it's anything like last year the white blood cells are going to be really high too. After last year with antibiotics my WBC's never went down much and I just let it go for the time being. I'm growing really anxious to know what's really wrong with me and why they won't go down. I'm currently on two antibiotics to see what will happen and see if my WBC's go down at all on Thursday when I go back to the Dr. Have any of you out there been through this at all and can offer me any advice? I don't have any symptoms of the obvious like the usual sickness would show. I have lost my appetite and have lost some weight but not too dramatically. My clothes don't fit anymore from just a month or two ago...

I guess all I can ask you for as friends, casual readers and people I don't know is for any good thoughts, advice, prayers, good karma that you can send my way.
I may be jumping to the worst of the situation but who knows if this has been the same for over a year.

So thank you in advance for reading this post and still loving me! Really, any advice would be very much appreciated.

Picnic Club!

I saw this on a friend's blog and thought I'd share too. I don't live in Provo but I know some of my readers do so check it out. Who wouldn't love a picnic in the park making new friends? We as a family love doing picnics whenever we can. Click on the button on the side of my blog or click on the picture to take you to the blog site with all the info! Happy picnicking!!

Jaidyn is turning 5!

My little man Jaidyn is turning 5 on Sunday and I just want to share with you how much I love him and am so proud to be his mother.  He's an amazing little guy with so much spirit and sweetness in him.  Up until just recently he's been a mamma's boy but lately he's becoming a daddy's boy and Hannah is becoming a mamma's girl.  I'm so grateful to be his mother and am constantly reminded daily of his awesomeness and closeness with his Heavenly Father.  Here's some pictures through the years... I love you Jaidyn!  The picture at the bottom shows his tenderness in a nutshell...